I am the best without trying to be.

Will let me say that I have not all ways been a fuck up this is a new thing to me but I think its going to stick with me. The first thing I have leared is how that when asked one of those trick Quistion ( you Know those trick quistions like does my butt look big or do you think she is better looking than you ex old lady ) don't anser it unless you want to be slapet or given a dirty look stay away from those quistions change conversation or act like you didn't hear the quistion don't do what I do I just say yes and take the look's and the stupid remark's she has to say but that me and I don't give a fuck anymore I am used to this type of bull shit.

The next thing you need to know is that a woman wants to spend time with that of witch you have become that someone who listens to all there problems and holds them when they are sad and protect them when they are scared it all in the imagenare job roll of the mans relationship hand book that is if there was one. But as the man I am and how I just don't care anymore I fuck this up as well.One friday night like usall I went to one of my friends house after work to drink some beer and she knows I do this so I thank she stays up just to call me to bitch at me the wholle time just so I can't relaxs and have a little fun with my Friends. But after like the tenth time she called me and like a Dum ass i'm still ansering the phone but this time insted of yelling at me she say's come home I'm like way she says there is something in the closet at this point in time I'm like this girl has done some crack or something in that nature or she is making shit up to get me home so I tell her I'll be home when I get there and to just leve me the hell alone and to stop calling me and stop yelling at me I give her an estamated time fram of when I'll be coming home so I did make it home at the time I gave her as the estamate when I go to the room I see her and the kids on the bed and then I look at the closet door and she has bloked it off with stuff from the bed room at this point in time I know she was telling me the truth she relly did think there was somthing in the closet so I go in to super Me mode and I go in the kitchen to get the biggest kniffe I own I get it go to the bed room open the door and I think to my self if there is some thing in there I'm just going to stab the shit out off it long be hold that there was noting in there I don't know if there was something in there or if she just wanted me to come home to spend time with me or if she just wanted to bitch at me face to face. So the addvise that I'm going to give you Is that if you true'll love the woman your with than that's who you sould want to go see after work and spend all your time with becuse she is your best friend and you know it to be true. Don't be like me a fuck up a losser a bad husband at lest thats what I'm told by her but evey thing I do piss her off I think she just don't love me anymore and want's me out but I have no where to go.


The next post I'm going to do is about the time she ask me if I think anyone is cute at work and who.